“You always said you wanted three children.”
Posted on | May 26, 2009 | No Comments
“You always said you wanted three children.”
Kelly said this to me the other day. I hadn’t thought about it in quite a while, and certainly not in the context she put it. But she was right. William and John everyone knows about, but we also had a miscarriage in between. I asked for three children, and God gave us three children.
Kelly mentioned this as we were discussing a high school graduation ceremony we attended last week. A young lady from our church, along with two other homeschoolers, graduated during a beautiful ceremony in North Austin. During one part of the event, there were slideshows celebrating the life of each graduate with a series of photographs, often with their siblings.
During the slide shows, we were both saddened that William’s graduation slideshow won’t have photos of siblings growing up with him-at least as the future stands today. One day we will be blessed to see all three of our children together, but we will have to wait for that day.
It’s hard to believe (Kelly’s writing now) John has been apart from us for one month. It seems as though it was just yesterday we were holding him, loving on him, caring for him, and wondering what he future would hold. Time is also quite mysterious in that it seems a lifetime that we have been able to look upon his sweet, beautiful face and rock with him on the front porch.
God has been so gracious to all of us and has gently led us through these dark days as we long to hold John just one more time this side of heaven. Many have asked how William is doing and the Lord has been merciful in showing us just how faithful and resilient he is. He has worked through his own grief very beautifully and probably much better than we have in that he doesn’t over-analyze it all as we grown-ups tend to do. He asks lots of questions about death and heaven. We have made books about John and drawn pictures of heaven. We enjoy going out to the cemetery occasionally and reading a book out there or playing soccer in the field across the lane. God has shown us and continues to show us how to heal and grow and live in this world even though we miss our precious John.
We are nearing the end of an amazing nine, yes NINE, months of wonderful meals that so many have brought to our home with love and generosity. And we look forward to getting back into the swing of cooking again and even to take meals to others in need. We thank every one of you that has brought this beautiful, life sustaining, encouragement into our home. It has been a blessing beyond measure.
Finally, we are very grateful for the memorial gifts that have been given in honor of John’s life. And many continue to ask about this. So while some of you may already know, we want to mention that there is a playground at our new church that is going to be named after John. The information for sending a memorial contribution is below if you are interested. It brings us great joy to know that generations of covenant children will be playing on this playground in memory of one little boy through whom God strengthened our courage and faith. John, even if he was still with us, would not have been able to play on this playground, or perhaps even speak or walk. Yet God used John to help us hope and trust, not in the things of this world, but in Him, the great God we serve. We pray that this memorial will help keep alive the inspiration that John was to us.
Here is the memorial information:
Redeemer Presbyterian Church
2201 N. Lamar Blvd. Suite 100
Austin TX 78705
Attn: John Edward Peacock Playground
(512) 708-1232
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